Finally....the end of a suffocating period!!!

I finally finished doing it! (I meant my A/Ls you sickos...) lolz! Now I'm kind of bored and all, without it....lolzzzz!! I know, I know, WEIRD ha? (BTW, A/Ls SUCKED BIG TIME!!!) Yes....but life goes on now! Yaaaaaaaay! I don't even mind goin back to the same old routine...(Refer to "LIFE FALLS INTO RUTS OF ROUTINE" post) But now that I'm kind of jobless, maybe I could make some slight adjustments in my routine... (Come to think of it....I'm not jobless cuz I've got loads of stuff planned on my Agenda) But, I'm sure I wont get half of that done, cuz even after my O/Ls I planned soooo much but couldn't even complete half of those which were "PLANNED" :( *SIGH

Anywez, other than my crappy A/Ls and my stupid plans...I've realized that life ain't that bad... As long as you go with the flow, things just fall into its right place. I know this sounds weird but, seriously... GO WITH THE FLOW... If you succeed Good for you, if you fail Try Again!!! Thats the way it works! Well...right now fellow bloggers and everyone that's reading my posts... I'm NOT in the mood to write....but in the mood to PARTAY and go wiiiild! Yaaaaay! So, will bounce off now! Till we meet again....CHEERS!!!

Life falls into ruts of routine.....

Well........ The Lit paper is finally over. Unfortunately it was too good to be true.....in other words it was a deceptive, seemingly easy paper.... *SIGH.. Oh well...Life goes on...
I've also finished my 1st and 2nd Geography Papers.........
Unfortunately we have a 3rd as well.... *SIGH (again)
I've gone through my Narayan again....(You know what? I've got really attached to that Narayan Book now....I used to hate it in the beginning with all the self-realization crap etc etc..... but now its like WHOA!):D Anyway...moving on....I'm gonna qoute from Narayan AGAIN! "Life falls into ruts of routine" Doesnt this phrase remind you of anything????? Well...it did to me...And the first thing I remembered was...MY LIFE! lolzz! No...Outta jokes! During these few weeks it's been like getting up in the morning, brushing my teeth, having a wash, having breakfast, lamenting about what I screwed up in my last A/L paper and then going back to studying, fudging around, resuming the study etc etc etc. *ho hum (I'm really over using this word aren't I? Believe it or not,I got used to it since I watched Ernie and Bert on Sesami Street....LOL!!! Outta jokes)
So, as Narayan says.....Life does fall into ruts of routine. And sometimes it can frustrate you a hell of a lot!

Today after exams....thaththi came to pick me up... Then he was like...So? how were the papers? I replied with a sigh hoping that he would get the hint....BUT NO!!! He then says.. 2 A's already huh? WOW! Just then....Steam blew out my ears and nose...I was FURIOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AAAAGGGGHHHHH!!! Wanted to tear up the whole Earth into millions and millions of tiny (mind you.. very tiny) pieces!!! After I bit my own hand for a while (i know its dumb...but that was the only thing that i had to bite...NO! I dont BITE EVERYTHING!!!) i felt much better..... Then when I came home I received bad news about one of my childhood teachers. He had passed away......That was it! I couldn't take it anymore..... After a while staying locked up in my room, I went into my bathroom with soggy, red eyes... YES! I cried. Then it felt a whole lot better! (Wonder why crying helps?....I mean Scientifically...)

Hmm.....Life falls into ruts of routine. So here I am trying to post something worth while but failing miserably! :( *SIGH! So, its Night time and according to ROUTINE it's waaay past my bed time. Too tired to break the routine and try something innovative right now..... SO Im off ta bed! Good night folks! Take Care! Zzzzzzz....................................................

Living without illusions....

Well.... I finally got my blog! After days of struggling hard to find the perfect name for it...I finally found a name which was not TAKEN!
I'm doing my A/Ls right now....yeah I Know that you are all wondering what Im doing posting stuff here without cramming myself to study hard... but just to let you know, This is a type of escapism... it takes your mind off the miserable side of life and helps you relax... (not that I've been working real hard to study, I've alwayz been relaxing...lol!) Well....back to the original subject.... I've finally realized that living without illusions is the greatest task in life! (though I'm qouting from Narayan, it takes a hell of a lot of time to realize something like that...)
During my A/Ls I found out many things about life... Such as friends and foes, survival in the outside world, fighting for what is right, getting in shit for committing the wrong, and a whole load more..... It first started off when my so called "clique" decided to walk their respective paths and they all vanished into all corners of the world... Some went to International schools while the rest went abroad! Then it hit me.....Shit! I'm all alone now.... When I decided to do Arts for my A/Ls everyone was like.... Arts???? Why???? Don't you have enough results to do something like Bio or Maths... I mean...I'm sure even Commerce is better than ARTS!!! Ho Hum... Thus you have the hypocrisy of Society. (yet another lesson to be learned by many more to come) NO! I do have enough results...infact I had more than i expected..... 7 whole A's and 1 little B (no...Im not boasting) but the fact that I was doing Arts disturbed the minds of many around me... But since my parents were like... Arts? That's fine! I went ahead (though with many doubts in my mind) After much trouble I decided to take up Geography, Literature and Statistics. I soon came to LOVE Lit thanks to my BELOVED.. let me repeat, BELOVED teacher Mrs. Rajasingham... then there was Geography, which remains my favourite subject for life. Stats was like... yeah ok i guess! lol! Since it was the only mathematical subject I was taking up, i tended to have a certain dislike towards it..(still do)
Some time later the friends that I had in school decided to walk the BIO path.. Then came their inadequate opinions on how hard the subjects are and about how Arts was NOTHING compared to it... Some even called the Arts section SIBERIA... Actually it was completely the opposite of Siberia.... it was probably like the Galapagos Islands.... Mysterious yet fascinating with lots to see and learn from! Later I found myself "hanging out" with someone whom I never thought I'd be friends with... We soon became close friends as we shared the same view points about majority of subjects. But Unfortunately her old friends were a bit dominative and she decided to spend more time with them than me... Well, I can't blame her, I mean they were her old buddies and she was obviously more attached to them than me.. (no, im NOT lesbo)
Later on there were ups and downs in school, where we fought against narrow-minded opinions etc and realized that people who have narrow view points will not succumb to some lamentations of an 18 year old.....
Then.. again came the loneliness.....I was ignored by friends, pushed and pulled from either side etc etc.... But i managed to cope up with life.. Then my oldest pal Ravini whom I'd lost contact with appeared like an Angel to study Stats with me.. Sure enough we caught up with each others lives soon and she made me feel all happy again....
Then crept in the competition against students.. Scholars arrived to grade 12 and the horrible memories of the past emerged (when the grade 6 scholars came to school we totally freaked out that we'll lose our domain... LOL) How pathetic huh? well..... life is somewhat pathetic isn't it.... Ho Hum (again)lol! :D

And now it's the ending to school life.. Though I'm happy to leave school, I can't help thinking that I will regret it... All these years life was drawn out for us..and it was easy since we just had one path to follow...SCHOOL! But now its like, You've suddenly come to this junction where there are many paths to follow but you're not sure which way is correct. And this time parents can't help because it's gonna be your life!

Life is full of Illusions my friends...we feel happy when we make plans for the future but then realize its futility when things go wrong.... Thus living without illusions is actually (as Narayan says) "the greatest task in life!"

And to those who decide to conveniently SKIP A/Ls... My advice to you is DON'T! The experience you get during those last two years of school will last a life time and make you a totally different person thus enabling you to think better and do well in life!

Adios! May the triple gem bless you all always!